new beginnings,

where do i begin, lots of events have occurred since i last updated you, lets see Thursday night, the night before i was to meet him, the bitch sent me a IM, after a million and ten IMs, i decided to answer them, just so she'd stop.
TB says: hey babe
LC says: please dont talk anymore kay,
TB says: LC please, we are bestfriends,
LC says:  try were bestfriends.
TB says: hear me out?
LC says: no, i really dont give a shit, TB should stand for that bitch.
TB says: i guess i deserve that.
LC says: girl, you have no idea.
TB says: LC, i feel really bad and i just miss you tons.
LC says: nothing is going to fix this TB just get over it.
TB says: i cant.
LC says: well try, and stop talking to me.
was i being way to harsh on the girl? i mean she did steal away the boy i loved, right from under me, i just don't know what anymore. so Friday morning when i went to meet up with him, he was already there with two coffees in his hand. he had mine just the way i liked it. mmmm. he is just perfect i kept thinking. we talked about the situation, and i told him how hurt i was that he just dropped me for the next best thing, but he reassured me that no one could ever replace me and how wrong he was about the whole situation and that he loved me so much he was scared and made a huge ass mistake. i was speechless, since i knew that everything he was saying was coming from his heart. i told him that i loved him and that i just cant get over that he did that. a tear fell from my face and he wiped it away, and said, "babe, what we have is real, and nothing can ever jeopardize that, i love you lauren, like no other" i hugged him, and forgave him. i mean i love the kid so much, i cant help but forgive him, he is my one and only, and i know you guys may think im crazy, but i don't really care because he is mine, and i love him. mmmmm. so all friday we spent the day together.

my life is going really goood now, i know i said in my early posts that i would never forgive both of them, but you know its just so hard when you love someone that much. so heres to new beginnings, the one i love, the friends who care, and lastly, me just being happy from this day forward.

thanks for listening,
xoxo L.C.